What a crazy ride! If you’re still joining me here, thank you for coming back. I really do believe that God can speak to different people through different ways and I pray that He uses this to do something special with you all. If it’s your first time, welcome! I hope you can rewind to the last post before you read this one. But even if you just read this one, thats okay as well!
Let’s jump right in.
I feel like after last week’s post it is important to remember that not every desire in our heart is a Godly desire. After all, Jeremiah 17:9 tells us clearly “The heart is deceitful above all things and desperately sick; who can understand it?” (ESV). We live in our sinful flesh so our hearts will reflect this from time to time. This simply emphasizes the dire need to draw closer to God. The more we seek God, the more He replaces our fleshly desires with those that He wants for us.
It’s truly interesting the way God does this too.
The desires that He starts placing in our hearts are reflective of His very own heart (as mentioned in the previous post). So truly, as we begin to know our hearts more, we begin to know God’s heart more and hopefully through this process we desire more of God and less of ourselves (John 3:30).
The very beginning is God and the very end is God and even the in-between is also all God.
So let’s jump right into this, shall we?
In the previous post I brought up the three basic desires of a woman’s heart. I know y’all are dying to know more so here goes.
The first of these desires is the desire to be romanced.
“At some core place, maybe deep within, perhaps hidden or buried in her heart, every woman wants to be seen, wanted, and pursued. We want to be romanced” (Captivating, Eldredge, 2010, p. 11).
Lets be honest, how special do you feel when that guy your heart skips a beat for is paying attention to you? He’s making time for you, he’s invested, he’s pursuing you… really pursuing you and fighting for you. You feel like the best strawberry in the field! “He picked me!” (You can say that in a southern accent if you fancy). It’s every girls desire, even growing up. For a little girl it is the desire to be wanted by our fathers, to be seen and fought for by the most important man in our lives.
Think back to that last romantic comedy you watched. There was probably a love battle consisting of a guy fighting to win the love of a beautiful woman maybe cast by Rachel McAdams and Ryan Gosling. I know you’ve watched the Notebook, don’t lie. The woman might have put up a fight but all-in-all the chase made her feel like a queen. It made her feel wanted. And as we watch the story unfold, our tissue boxes in hand, we wonder if we will ever be wanted by someone in that same way. In that moment it almost even seems silly because it’s a fictional movie, right?! But the desire is real and it goes beyond those 90-120 minutes of film time.
Sometimes, these moments of wondering will even lead us to question whether we are even good enough to be wanted so badly that a person is willing to purchase an expensive plane ticket just to run through an airport terminal and beg us to stay. For some of us, the answer has been given to us many times before and so we lean towards that same answer over and over again, “pfft, I wish”. No one has ever demonstrated that sort of passion and pursuit so it would be bizarre and way too unrealistic to think that any one ever will. The desire, however, still very much lives and breathes inside of us.
All I can say about this from a personal perspective is that yes, this desire is very much true for me as well. I will leave it without explanation. Maybe one day I can come back to this and be strong enough to share a personal anecdote but for now all I can say is that you are most definitely not alone, girl. *insert fabulous girl emoji here*
Let’s switch it over to what really matters and what I feel will do this first point the most justice.
It is beautiful to see how much this says about God.
It turns out that God is that crazy guy running through an airport terminal just to catch us.
We’re running away because we don’t feel that we matter. Because we are confronted with lies, we are confronted with infidelities, we are confronted with broken relationships, we are confronted with broken hearts and broken desires but God is literally pursuing us as we continue to run. Have you ever read the story of Hosea and Gomer? Seriously, if you haven’t you should! The book Redeeming Love by Francine Rivers paints a beautiful picture of this story as well. The Lord tells Hosea to literally go seek and pursue a woman of whoredom and make her his wife. Gomer continued to run away and the Lord continued to tell Hosea to seek her and fight for her. Hosea’s continuous pursuit for Gomer, despite all the times she would run, was a reflection of God’s pursuit of the people of Israel. No matter how far God’s people would fall, He sought them out. God wanted them to know that there was redemption, there was a love that covered all of their sin.
An even better portrayal of God’s pursuit of us is shown through this: “He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things” (Romans 8:32, ESV).
God pursues us to the point of giving His one and only son for us on a cross.
How is it that this does not make us feel like a queen?
Something even more beautiful is that this basic desire reflects the fact that God also desires to be pursued by us. Can you believe it? The most uncool people ever, yes I mean you and me. He wants us to seek Him. He desires for us to seek Him.
God wants to be loved. He wants to be a priority to someone. How could we have missed this? From cover to cover, from beginning to end, the cry of God’s heart is, “Why won’t you choose me?” It is amazing to me how humble, how vulnerable God is on this point. “You will… find me,” says the Lord, “when you seek me with all your heart” (Jer. 29:13). In other words, “Look for me, pursue me – I want you to pursue me.” Amazing. As Tozer says “God waits to be wanted”. (Wild at Heart, Eldredge, 2010, p. 37)
I can pretty much just close this up now and all has been said. Just let those words simmer and penetrate the deepest parts of you. God wants to be wanted, just as we want to be wanted.
This weekend was one where this point was brought up a lot in almost every conversation I was a part of. How many times do we choose to choose someone else over God or something else even? The craziest part is that in the moments we do choose to not choose God, those are the times where our desire to be wanted grows because we just aren’t finding what we are looking for. Our hearts want more, we desire more. Let me tell ya something, in that very same exact moment God is filling your heart with what His heart is filled with; He wants more, He desires more of you, of your time, of your love. God wants to be romanced just as we do, ladies. Don’t miss this.
He calls us His beloved. Although we tend to not choose Him, He chooses us and desires for us to one day realize that He is the best choice we can ever make.
I pray that as you read this, these words will be more than just words. I pray that as you continue to journey through this you can come to the realization that Jesus is all you need and nothing else will ever satisfy. Stop whatever you’re doing, pursue Him and trust me, you will find Him and He will fulfill the desires of your heart (Psalm 37:4).